Expanding into Now

I remember years ago reading that there is very little difference in the way the body experiences fear and excitement. I've been spending time chewing on this of late, I'm feeling both actually - but excitement seems to be winning out. I'm seeing hearts everywhere again (including in my chocolate chip ice-cream the other night, that was pretty cool). One would think I'm waiting for him to call right now, but there is no particular him at the moment (though I know some lovely men), just life unfolding in fascinating ways.

Some of it is very scary because I'm facing an old old pattern and doing my best to look at the current manifestation of it with curiosity and not with blame. I'm realizing the more I can be still and allow myself to get clear on how I want to feel in a certain situation vs. the obvious emotion that automatically comes up, the more space I have to experience something new. Things shift, sometimes in oh so subtle ways, sometimes dramatically. Whatever is going on it's certainly invigorating. I now have the energy and focus to clean and organize in my apartment in ways I haven't been able to in months!

And I'm very excited that I've finally got the beta version of DatingLikeGrownUps.com up and am expanding it slowly. Wow, I've been planning it for years so it's nice to have it finally moving forward.