1 post tagged “down time”

Ever hit those times of hurry-up–and-wait where no matter what your intentions are you just can’t seem to get the longed for results?

I'm having difficulty writing an article I'm very excited to write, but the words just aren't flowing yet, and I really need them to do so by this evening.  I wrote to a couple of nice and attractive gentlemen on CL yesterday as a part of my vow to actually have a social life this year and apparently neither of them found me enticing enough to do the same in return (yes, even dating and romance advice writers have dry spells, it keeps us humble and compassionate).  Bummer.  One of them was very cute.  No one is calling me to set up the job interviews for more part time floral design work I really need (and were suppose to get back to me right after V-Day), and various people I'm waiting to hear from on various other subjects just don't seem to have me high on their priority list.

Yep, it must be incubation time.  And considering it's fat Tuesday, and going into Lent (right?) perhaps it's very appropriate.   

I’m sure you know what it’s like, you feel like you should be getting some reward for your good behavior, for paying off that bill, organizing that closet, sending that resume (or many), posting that online profile - some positive feedback, a little reward from the universe for your effort, but instead it feels like the three-steps-forward-two-back-dance, you're making progress, but not the way you want damn it.

Not only have the guys not written back, the brand new "exacto" knife I bought to cut up my new car registration tags with (after paying off several parking tickets) won't open.  And you HAVE to slice up the tag because otherwise someone will steal it the way they have three times previously.

But as with all incubation times if I'm willing to be honest (after a little emotional temper tantrum) there are still a myriad of things I need to take care of on my "to do" list, and this quiet time is perfect for that.  Yes, I've started to thoroughly clean my apartment with the idea of making it a delightful space and not just someplace I pile my junk and sleep, but the emphasis needs to be on started - it's very far from done.  And there are taxes to file, and a new website to create, and a book that needs outlining (as well as writing).

On a helpful note I finally got the firefox browser to completely load so I could post here at vox, which might mean I can actually create an account at ipod so I can use my gift certificate my sister gave me for christmas to buy new music.  And I found out my next door neighbor is into yoga and meditation as well as walking, which I am too (though it's been years since I've done any yoga, but I love the idea of it) so it will be nice to have someone to do those activities with so close by.

And last night when I was feeling my grumpiest about this slow time I googled my name and was greeted with the reality that I've written a hell of a lot of articles on dating and sex and people are posting them on their blogs.  In one case several people commented on how helpful the advice was, which made me feel very good.

But alas, I know I still need to finish organizing my apartment.